Last night I had a dream......have you ever had one of those dreams where nobody in your current life is even around? You have no children, no husband, no parents or siblings. You are just a person.
I was shopping in Home Depot (yeah, like I would ever do that in real life), and I got lost in the aisles. I ended up finding an employee indoor pool. I walked into the room and steam was rising from the water. I stripped off all of my clothes. I was uninhibited and entered the water and swam naked until I was exhausted.
When I approached the side of the pool, a man was standing there (he looked like an Italian God, of course). He handed me a beautiful white robe....so plush that I thought I might get lost in its fluffiness. He lead me to a table and sat me down.
He held my hand and stared in to my eyes.
He said I was competent and beautiful and intelligent. He said that the light emanating from my body was nearly blinding. He said I was full of love. He said that I wasn't living my life to my full potential. He said that I had many more things to do and I wasting my time.
I then felt my husbands familiar shake. "Wake up tallulah. You need to get the kids ready for school...." and then I drifted back to my dream for a few short minutes.
I told the man that I had to go back to my family. I had responsibilities and pressures and a husband and a life that I SO wanted to ignore for a few more minutes. I told him I felt so good here. I was peaceful and happy and I wanted everyone to feel the same way about me that he did.
He asked me not to go.
I felt the familiar shake. "tallulah! You really need to get up." Bubby said.
So I dragged myself out of bed, tears streaming down my eyes just wanting a few more minutes...just a few more.